But that's to be expected right? I can't really say it's one particular thing that's got me sort of melancholy these days. For all I know it's the fact that I'm drinking more coffee than water. Heck, I just drank three glasses of coke before bed, no wonder I feel off.
Overwhelmed is a word I have been using a lot these days. Still working three days a week at the restaurant which is plenty. Between all the lifting of trays and boxes my mind tends to wander to all the other things that matter most: clearing my debt, creating dance steps, finding a boyfriend, finding time for friends, trying to stay healthy, finding time to sleep.
I crave sleep and yet there are moments I don't want to go to bed knowing I have to face yet another challenging day. Aren't those signs of depression? Maybe I need to go to a tanning salon and get my sun on.
Well, I'm yawning so I think it's off to bed for me. To be fair, a lot's been going on so I can't really understand why I'd be feeling down. But I'm being present to it, there it is, how boring life would be if we were "happy" all the time. The Sun cannot exist without the Moon....
Perhaps it is safe to say that I am following the seasons quite closely. I plan on shedding this old skin by Spring for sure. I'm optimistic. You never know what's around the corner....
